At this point of time, my life is extremely complicated. For once, I cannot take control of the problems that I'm going through. I don't understand why everything has to happen at the same time. I don't even know where to start right now. Like the rain, I'm going through a downfall. Wait, downfalls I mean. I feel so helpless and ruthless at the same time. My life's super messed up. So am I. Various turmoils coming in from different angles. Like 2012, one's not done and over with yet here comes another one. I cannot think straight. My mind's filled with a hell lot of issues. Unfortunately for me, I couldn't think of any solutions. On the other hand, why am I thinking for myself only? I am being so selfish and self-centered. I cannot deny. Call me whatever, I don't give a F word about it. Everything that I've caused, it wasn't on purpose nor was it according to any sorts of plans. I didn't intend to hurt anybody. It's cruel and barbaric. As mush as I thought likewise, it's happening. I am really hurting people. I do not want such melancholic things to occur but I cannot help it. I want to comfort everyone and be fair. Be more than fair. But I am not capable of doing so, I'm just an ordinary human being. Why am I doing this? I cannot think of any negligible reasons. And so, with that, more problems add up to this already burdened shoulder of mine. Having issues with the usuals. Yeah, it's just what I needed right now isn't it? Thought I could dance my way out of this whole mess but no, it's affecting every single thing. It's like my problems are all interlinked. Well fuck this shit. I had enough already. If there's still more yet to come, I couldn't be bothered anymore. I couldn't be bothered about my life, my everydays, my school, my everything. I'm now a young lady with absolutely no destinations to walk to in life. For real. In the mean time, I shall pop a four-ish into my mouth. So my apologies if you can't get through me. I'm allowing a four-ish to conquer me right now. Chao..